40 cm at 36 weeks. Eeks.

We got another mail goody today. Scott Farmer, who is the sweetest, bought our baby it's first toy, peek a boo blocks. Yay! We also got some cool shell beads from Betsy to add to the bracelet and mini pearls from Jean.
Today I went to the midwife for an appointment and my belly is 40 cm. Holy Cow! That is really huge. And here I was complaining about not being very big. Brenda answered a lot of questions I had. She was kind of down because her incredible staff has so many life changing things going on when everyone is due. Moira will go on maternity around July 17. Valarie just got an opportunity for her whole family to do missionary work, leaving almost immediately.
One of the main things that we talked about was passing things to baby and mother during birth. My RH factor has always been a concern of mine, but she also wanted me to look into Strep D and to work on eliminating my yeast. So when I came home I plopped myself in front of the tv to watch Born in America and Orgasmic Birth, while eating a bunch of yogurt and garlic down my pants. I can just see what a mess thrush would be. My breasts already are so susceptible to candida.

Baby Bird

Baby Bird
Originally uploaded by Shannon Marye

Lots of new life is happening around our home. This bird was so adorable with his furry little feathers and his inability to fly. Watch and suck in all the cuteness.

Pain in the Butt

Yesterday Trish asked me over to record my voice on a new cd they are making. It was a small three stanza read of seeds being scattered in the womb of the soil, but it was really fun. We talked a little bit about the pregnancy. I am still seriously worried about this torn tendon, pulled groin, whatever it is on the left side of my entire yoni that hurts like the dickens. Everytime I get up to work I feel the immense pain. Trish said she had something similar and she doesn't remember it at all during birth. Lots of people are trying to be supportive saying that pain will be worse that you won't even feel it. I'm scared but I think I am ready.

New Trick

I think this is so funny, but pictures can't really show how funny it is. This first photo is my round belly full of baby when I lay down. The second photo is when I start to get up and my belly forms around my baby. So it looks like a little mound built in the middle of my tummy.

Baby making Baby

I'm a big baby. Last night I had what I think is more than a Braxton Hick. Those I think are when parts of my stomach feel like the baby is grabbing my flesh and pulling in which is not too bad, just mildly annoying. Last night I was up until two, my whole uterus was like stone and my body hurt all around me like a big innertube was around me squeezing me tighter and tighter and I couldn't make it stop. I wanted to puke but I couldn't. I thought it might be severely trapped gas, but I don't think it was. Bryce was a pal and took the rolling pin to me as I squirmed around the bathroom in pain. I don't know how I am going to handle actual labor after that little episode. That pain lasted over an hour, do contractions last that long? I thought they were only like 5 minutes, but maybe I am thinking about the time in between them. Ahhh, it is coming so soon.

Big Belly

I suppose the nesting instincts are coming at the perfect time as it is garage sale weekend and my mom and I are putting together a sale at my house. I have such a hard time letting go of clothes. Partly because of my fascination with the boxes of my mom's clothes I found in high school and wore until they were shreds and partly because of the memories I have when I see them. However, there are seven large tubs of my clothes from high school to last year all priced and ready to go. Even my converse all-stars which I debated for a long time. I haven't seen so many jeans without elastic for a long time. Anyway, I hope the sale goes well because I don't plan on donating everything I am selling. If it doesn't find a good home it may go right back up into the attic. I did however find this cute bubbly shirt (see photo) that I forgot about that my mom bought for me in December. I am trying to get as much use out of it as I can before baby boo comes around. All these maternity shirts I love are going to have to find their own box once little one is here because I am definitely not going to be sporting empire waist shirts on a post-pregnancy belly without being very concerned that I still look pregnant.

More concerns

1. My mother- to have or not to have her at the birth. If she is not there I am sure I will wish she was, I need the support she often gives and the go and get them attitude.
If she is there I fear I will play on her insecurities with home birth and panic attack into wanting to go to the hospital. I wish she was more secure in home birthing, but I am never the person who can convince her. It usually needs to be tv.

2. I'm going insane- I keep seeing tiny flicks in the corner of my eye that I think are mice. They never are. Mice are one of my biggest fears. What am I dealing with that is making me see this and I am in the first steps of nuerosis?

3. Finances as always. The thing I feel good about is we are being incredibly good with our budget. And my parents just gave us the rest of the money for the midwife, which shows some support. That was a big thing I was worried about fitting in without other bills. Now I have enough to pay all of my bills for a few months without working, but I hope I find something soon or get one of my ideas in shape. I loved coming up with them, now it is going out and getting them.