Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The results are in, or not

After I wrote my story this morning Bryce told me I had an message on my phone from the hospital.  It was "the other doctor" calling to say that I indeed have antibodies, if I ever got pregnant again to call a specialist immediately, and God Bless.  I am not sure he really understood the devastation this news brought to me and my family.  In one moment several dreams vanished from my life 1) being a surrogate mother  2) completing a live birth at home  3) even the possibility of having more kids.  I am unsure of how willing I would be to go through multiple traumas to have another child.

I lost it.  Bryce called Brenda.

Brenda was optimistic however and told Bryce to help me calm down.  She said she would call my main doctor because she just didn't think that this result was correct.  I had not had any trauma during my first pregnancy that would have caused Link and my blood to mix, and I had gotten the shot immediately after delivery.  Moira also called with the same information and letting me know she has many mom's who don't get the rhogam shot at all, that are RH- and are fine. 

A few hours later I got a call from my main Doctor (Schwartz).  He gave me a gigantic apology for his colleague.  He said that because I had a rhogam shot just 10 days before the antibody check that there would of course be antibodies in the body.  It is like getting a vaccination for something and then checking a day later to see if there was a vaccine in you.  The test should not have been taken for up to three months after I took the rhogam.  So spirits are lifted, except for the fact that I might get the same result in three months.   Let's pray that I do not.

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